
I think my eyes are gonna bleed.. I’ve been trying to sleep for 5 hours, I’m trying to sleep.. but when I’m about to fall asleep, I see red and yellow light, and I hear massive explosions.. it is the fifth bombs.. no, no.. it exceeds 20 bombs.. the Israeli air raids targets place very close to our house.. the loud sound of drones is irritating me, I’m not going to tolerate its buzzing.. its sound drills in my head..
Actually there is no chance for a sleep!
I’m writing everything.. At the same time, I’m remembering the last Israeli war on Gaza in 2009.. I can’t assimilate anything.. feeling like I’m freezing to death. My parents have opened the windows, the world outside is burning.. the streets are empty.. Nothing else than the shells when they fall down on the city like bloody rain.
The electricity just went off, the internet went down either.. more loud explosions hit the place I live in. I’m hearing doors, window panes, and glass all breakdown in the area.
we are all gathered in one room. The radio is on. We do not turn it off.. bad news, horrible reports. When the shelling starts, we, my sister and I, get very scared. We close our eyes. We cannot do anything else. Closing our eyes is the only thing that helps so that we don’t see the yellow and red lights of the shells when they are falling.. Our parent hold us and try to calm us down. All of us are young, only a one year baby girl. She is very innocent. When the explosions happen we convince her that they are fireworks. I cannot hide my tears when I see her playing because she doesn’t know what is really happening and that we could all die in any moment.
My family and I are under the fire. North Gaza is firing. War doesn’t recognize life!
It is a helpless and horrible feeling, knowing a friend is suffering. No child should ever know war, and adults would do well to forget it.
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Kawther,
I am sorry for your suffering my friend. It is clear that you are being retraumatized by the stress from the war in 2008-2009. Please if there is anything that I can do, write to me. I know that you are afraid and you may feel that no one cares, but the world is listening and the world is aware of the horrible crimes being perpetrated on Gaza. Action is being taken. You are not helpless. The world will not stand and watch as war criminals perpetuate destruction. I am thinking of you and praying for you.
Salam and Love,
Noelle
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